Sindhoora Pemmaraju \ Spring 2015

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Surrender

‘Surrender yourself unto me 
and you will be fine”, He says 
but I want more than ‘fine’. I want flesh 
abandoning my bones. I want days
when  my heart is raw and chafed;
days when my heart is plump and fresh
for plucking; days when I photosynthesize
in places the sun touches me, days when I am swollen
with love; times when my days
feel like the word vegetables sounds.
Fresh, untiring and healthy. Undiluted
regret; anxiety, churning acid in my stomach,
this is what I want; days when I am tender like wet
grass pressed against feet.
I want human 
in the most feral untamed form.

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Sindhoora Pemmaraju is nineteen for now and is studying English literature at Delhi University. She has been published in Helter Skelter, eFiction India and The Vagina Zine. She wants to grow up to be awesome.